Thanksgiving

Hey, everyone!
So, today is thanksgiving. Haha I bet you all know, though. But I thought I'd do a post on what I am thankfull for.

• I am thankful for my family. My four wonderful parents, and my nine amazing siblings, my three dogs, and all my aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents. They keep me grounded. My cousins and siblings are honestly my best friends.
• I am thankful for my friends. They help me keep my standards high and they are always there for me. I'm so thankful for their listening ears and their amazing advice. I love how they know exactly how I feel without me saying any words. 
• I am thankful for my church, for having something to arrange my life around and something to believe in. I love reading and going to church on sunday and seminary every morning before school. 
• I am thankful for my schooling. So that I have alot of oppertuntites for when I am older. 
• I'm thankful for my house, and the money my parents make so I am aloud to get nice stuff. 

Well, I am thankful for so many things, those are my main things. I should go! watching brave with my mommy, lilli, and kellen (: 

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Honestly? I have NO idea what I'm going to write. Haha I just felt like typing.
In beginning acting we are working on writing monologs (aside the flashmob that will go on on tuesday.) and I've gotton really into it! Like, I've always thought I was a novelist and a novelist only, right? But seriously, to be honest I've only finished one of my so called novels and I LOVE writing monologs. Taping into people feeling, what they think, what they see. It puts the world in a whole new perspective and I've been LOVING it! So, I thought I'd just show you've what i've been working on.
What I just wrote.


Orange, and pink, and a dash of lilac. That's all I see as I steadily think of you. Sitting here, where we used to sit, watching a sunset like so many we've watched together. And I'm thinking of nothing but you. Your perfect smile, Your contagious laugh, your gorgeous blue eyes, and this sunset, it seems so... different. But its really not unlike any of the others. The only difference is that your hand is not in mine, and your not in the drivers seat next to me. Your there, up there, somewhere in the sunset.

Okay, so I have to admit something. Ive kinda become a... ugh.... shutter..... ramance writer. Uhhh. Haha. Something I thought I'd never become. It's weird, I must be a serious teenage girl because thats all I write about, romance or death. I dont know, I feel like those are the only things that I can write about to keep in the little box. Something to bring people to tears and say,"wow. this is GOOD"

This next one, is called, walls.

I walk backwards untill my back brushes the wall. I put all my weight against it and slide down untill I'm sitting, my thighs pulled up against my chest, my chin resting on my knees. Take me away, I plead, Take me away. Let me disappear into this wall, blend in and never come out. Never again. I close my eyes and let my thoughts wander. Wander far away from my body and any other mortal being. I don't want to be here anymore. My only rocks, foundations, safe houses, have been taken away. I dont have anyone to lean on and it taks years for me to trust in people. I don't have years, heck, I might not even have minutes.
Minutes. I think... and thinking. Very strange things. I have once planned out my life, not opening my eyes untill it was 100% perfect. When I did, only two minutes had passed. Two mintues. Two minutes to plan a perfect life. Thats how fast th human brain thinks. Thats why it only took seconds to decide a plan. A plan to ruin my life, to end it.

Yeah, That ones alittle dark.. haha.. two more I wanna share. They are just kinda about high school drama that I've experienced or seen people go through.

First is called forever and always.
I thought what we had going was good. Apparently not good enough. You turned to her without a second thought and see welcomed you with open arms. Knowing all about me. And i honestly hate her for it. Now, I sit back and try to be your best friend. Its getting harder. Im tired of people stopping me in the halls to tell me a new horror story they think I "diserve" to know. But I don't really want to know anymore. You swear they arent true and I want to believe you, because of the fact that your my best friend, not them. But all my other friends know a different the story and see that I'm still talking to you, they look at me as if I'm weak and desperate. So, what to do? I can't really take all this crap much longer. You broke your promise, anyway. I am still here though... and I promised you I always would be. No matter what, but still. This is getting to be a little much. When did this friendship become complicated? When did it go from being me and you to being me, you, her, them and EVERYONE else? But, unlike some, I will keep my promise. Me and you. Spongebob and patrick. Harry and Ron. Tom and Jerry. Ally and Austin. Your my best friend, forever and always.


A DANGER SIGN.
You stand infront of me, like a danger sign. You are off-limits, already called, no good, not to be spoken to. I knew that from day one. But thats the promblem, right? If no one had mentioned you to me and me to you. We might ave never looked or talked to eachother. I almost wish they hadnt. I wouldnt be standing here trying to decided what to do, tell you I like you more then this or walk away like I've been instructed to a million times. "Bad kid" "fake" Horible words like those echo in my head like swear words as I stare at you and your perfect hair and teeth that took years in the makeing. No one knows how comforting your words are. I stand here, asking my self if its all worth it. If you alone are worth ruining other relationships I've built up. From your ex best friend who I thought loved me to my best friend who loves you. So likeable, and charming and kind, but evil and corrupting like the said. Corrupting, "To destroy or subvert the honesty or integrety of-" I look at your past and mine, but more so my future. Are you even in it? Over the past weeks I've come to befriend and trust you. Is that trust worth "destroying my integrity?"
Tell me, are you worth it??



Thanks for listening! Or reading! Please contact me and tell me what you think. I'D LOVE FEEDBACK!
Till next time.

Tiger Football and best friends (:

Okay, so I bet you heard all about the first round of play offs, WON IN THE LAST TWO SECONDS!! It was amazing, I can honestly say I almost craped my pants. Honestly. And I can also honestly say I have never been so proud of a group of people in my life. I've grown up with these boys. They've come so far to where they are now. I seriously can not believe it. SHOULDA BEEN THERE.
Now I'm just gonna make a tribute, to tiger football, but mostly, to my best friend. Trampis Calvert Waite.

I had to put this up. (: Most of you have probably seen it on facebook but they're so cute (: I love them. they need to get married.
Okay, so, my tribute to Tramp (;
Trampis Calvert Waite is my bestest friend! (Even if he doesnt act like it cause he's a dumb teenage boy). I love going on drives with his cause he asks me advice, we talk about life, but mostly, we sing. Trampis is a singer, he really loves music. Crazy right? I wouldnt have thought it either. We sing and if the songs a duet, he makes me sing the girl and yells at me if I sing the boy. We blast music and drive, we mostly dont talk. Which is okay. I think just having eachother there for the time being is the best. He is a good lookin kid. Mom and I decided he looks like dad in the picture above. He is a great football player too, just a great athlete. Okay, I dont know much about football but still. He's like me, we have to work hard to be good, it really doesnt come as naturally to us as people think. Our dad is our dad after all. I am so proud of him! That last game... wow. He's grown. And you could tell he loves the sport. HE LOVES FOOTBALL. He is a very tender hearted, kind, compasionate, romantic and he can act like he's not, and seem really tough, but we are talking about the guy who flooded the theater in 8 below. Anyway, he is like my dad. alot. but also like my mom. alot. The best of both I guess.



Anyway, My Trek sister Carlys dad dies the other day. About a week ago. They have been in Utah for the past 3 months for his treatments (he had cancer) and they were gonna move back when he got better. Well, they decided they are going to live there permanatly. :(
She had a going away party on Monday and I took picturess, of course.

Thats her. One of the most beautiful, spiritual, strong people I know and I know she will stay strong for her 9 other siblings.

                                          Thats her sister Mary (: also a strong spiritual girl (:

Yes, oh man, these were also two of the party guests(: And two of my really good friends. Coulsen, and Emily.

I just had to put this is cause Becca looks really funny and DO I SERIOUSLY LOOK LIKE THAT WHEN I LAUGH?! (:

mary, Becca, Sarah, Me, and Coulsen. Playing apples to apples. They was also Katie, EMily, Emily, Joesph, Cynthia, Michael, My Ma and Pa and a bunch of other people. probably around 30.

Haha I might as well put that in too? haha Cynthia (who had my camera) Kinda thought it was a photoshoot of ME. Haha (;
Well I still have homework. Math. blah... BYE!! (:

October- an original song by Ella Waite

OCTOBER
Its been raining alot over here, you can clearly see its october. And- just like the sun- I can feel you slowly drifting away. As eachday passes, what happened to us? So much has changed, we've changed, everything has changed.
                                                   CHORUS
I miss you now, more then ever. And you dont seem to care. My days are consumed, waiting for a word from you. I wish things were back to the way they were. I wish you were here.

I've been waiting for weeks and weeks, no calls, emails, or letters. It feels like you were never here, never alive, never breathing. How am I suppose to still love you? You make it so hard' everyones telling me to stay away.
                                                 REPEAT CHORUS
 Finally its come to the end of the month of october, maybe its time to forget and move on. Even though its hard. I'll try to be strong just for you. Do you suppose I can do it? I just need you to know...
                                                CHORUS.





So, yeah, I wrote that(: But I've realized that people like to guess who the songs about. But dont, kay? (: No one knows except me (: Well, its not nesicarily just for one person but everyone, everyone who has someone they love far away with alittle love twist. So, I cant really say its for one person, Its for a different person to all of us.

Long time, no type.

Hey guys (:
How are we all? Good I hope?
I have alot of catch up to do! Anyway, school is pretty good. Its kinda stressful, HIGH SCHOOL IS HARD! especially science and german. I didnt really take it seriously at the beginning and boy that was a mistake. But i'll get those grades up, no worries. Alot has gone on since I posted last. I auditioned for a play and got into the 3rd round of call backs when my grades began to slip and i was a tad overwelmed. I wouldve made it but I passed on this one and I will audition again in the spring. Schools awesome. Have i gone through my day yet? Strength is pretty hard, I get worked! Weight lifting monday, wednesday and friday and runnning/abbs on tuesday and thursday. Second period is German. Thaats alright. Wie heisst due? mein name ist wiebke. Wie alt bist du? Ich bin veirzehn jahre alt. Woher kommst du? Ich komme aus roseburg. (:
Third is math. I REALLY like my math teacher this year(:
4th is beginning acting and thats AMAZING! Ive gotten wayyy more confident! and I wrote and recorded a song!
Then its lunch. I sit at the mormon table i guess(: Me, Lizzy, Becca, Emily, Curtis, Cameron, Spencer, and soren (:
Then CP english which i love. and Science which i hate. Then wellness.

Oh! the youth conference! On the 13th of october we had a regional youth conference. Not as spirutual as trek but what can be?! 

This is the only okay picture from that day. This is me and spencer on the ground. We were having ducktape olympics. We fell (:

That was good, the dance afterwards was THE BEST. Like every dance I have to say who I danced with. Coulsen, Lucas, Ryan, and this kid from coos bay who I dont remember his name... haha.

It was just super fun.

SEMINARY IS AMAZING! It starts off my day right and I am NOT shy at all in the class, just ask anyone in there. I sit by Dallin, probably not the best idea bro radigan has had all year (: We talk to much but hey, I'll talk to anyone he puts me next to (:

So Homecoming.. I didnt go (: I was in Ontario for our homecoming and I wouldnt have been able to go if I was here. Even if i was asked... three times(: haha. But I'll go next year most likely, cause I want to experience it myself but most likely I wont have any fun. None of the mormons ever do I hear (:

So, Im blanking on what I wanted to say??

Anyway I hope everyone is well! call me or text me!(:

Bye!

-ella <3