Playing catch-up!

Hello guys(:
So to update on dads, we spent a day at grandmas. It was FREAZING outside but of course... we went 4wheeling!

Ky FINALLY let me take Kres(: He was soooooo cute! We were on gear 2 and yelling "wow! we're going fast, big ella!" The whole night we played super heros, house, and played on grandmas wii. It was fun because usually Im thrown aside by the favorite cousin, Tazzie.

Anyway we left the next day around lunch.

I dont remember what day but one of the days we went to kiwi locco(: (frozen yogurt place in ontario) It was yummy!  Tramp had some kind mixed with bacon... It tasted like coffee. We were like, what? haha The day after we got back we went to a double header baseball game in FREAZING COLD RAINY WINDY WEATHER! it was really fun though(: The next day was another game that was freazing and it went into extra innings.

Then daddy, Trampo, and I went to the wrath of the titans in the Imax theater(: That was cool but really expensive! It was a really good movie since I love the greek gods and myths. Afterward we went to rodeo stake house and that was really good too.

I miss going to movies with my daddy.

That night I spent the night at Halies, went back to dads in the mourning and got packed, cleaned chan and chases' room and drove to boise. It was an okay flight but alittle bumpy... before the flight dad was as amazing as usuall and I missed him right when I boarded, Traci, tramp, chan, chase, and syd too. It would be perfect if they lived right next to us here in roseburg(: haha or we lived there.

Okay on to other stuff. Tday in church we focused on christs last days. I bawled! oh! That reminds me, the night before last my friend Emilee spent the night and we went to the hunger games again. I bawled(:

I DIED A STRIP OF MY HAIR RED!

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this is the lyrics to one of my favorite songs by birdy. Look her up, shes great

I dont know where I am,

I dont know this place.

I dont reconize anybody,

Just the same old dirty face.

See these people, they lie,

And I dont know who to believe anymore.

But there comes you,

to keep me safe from harm.

Here comes you,

to take me in your arms.

Is it just a game?

I dont know.

Is it just a game?

I dont know.

He denies to break my heart,

So homesick and confused.

But I know I must play my part.

When tears I must conseal.

There comes you,

to keep me safe from harm.

There comes you,

To take me in your arms.

Is it just a game?

I dont know,

To keep you safe from my world.

Take my hand and my heart races.

Flames illuminate our faces,

 And we are on fire.

Blow kisses to the crowd.

They're our only hope now.

And I know my place,

and I know my place.

We're all just peices in their games.

(its on the hunger games soundtracked) :)

I like skinny love and people help the people by her too.

So I started a new story... Suprise suprise right?

I turn slowly and lock the bathroom door. My hand falls off the doorknob and its back at my side.

"Jeasa!" cade calls. I close my eyes and bite my lip. He must be a mile away from the hotel room but he'll be here soon.

He's like me.

I face the mirror and exmine myself with much less then satisfaction. My hair is in its usual bun. my red hair with brown acsents smells like the strwberry shampoo I just bought. I have a more narrow face that is sprayed with freckles across the bridge of my nose. I have an ugly scar on the right side of my face, barely.above my jaw line, and another next to my widows peak. I have blue eyes and pale skin and an athletic build. I should be completly deaf in my right ear, but i'm not which makes me very mad. My left hand has burn marks. All of this, Cade says, are proof Im a fighter, a surviver. I back away from the mirror and sink to the floor, back against the door. I pick up my notbook and pen.

"Jeasa! dont do it!" Cade yells at the other side of the door.

"Im not!" The doorknob wiggles.

"Then why is it locked?!"

"Im not killing myself!" I yell. I hear him sigh.

"Then.."

"I have to tell the world." I say.

"Dont take long then." I know he's mad. I absolutly hate him being mad. I pick up my pen and begin to write, to tell everyone what they did to me. To tell you why I wake up every night screaming. To tell the world why they lock their doors at night.

This is my story, so sit and listen because its not just what they did to me, its what they did to Cade, and all the others.

In the end it will affect you all...